i read this and i see that i am one of those stupid girls that i didnt want to be.

dear world,

im sorry. im sorry. im sorry.

im sorry for being so sensitive this week. gahhh i hate it. im sorry. i dont think anyone will understand but i just want to get it out.

i get over him by forgetting about him. everytime i think about him i just divert my thoughts. i just supress my feeling,but every once in a while they surface because of something...

i think seeing him this weekend was a bad idea. its weird because this is what i wanted. i wanted for him to move on so i could move on. maybe i didnt want him to move on so soon. just hearing about him with another girl makes me want to cry. a bunch of thoughts just fly through my mind but the thought of being so easily replaced just sticks. i want to get over it but some part of me doesnt want to. why dont i want to? God. satisfy me again...

Just finished writing my testimony for EPIC tonight and as i was writing i was wondering why i couldn't figure out why i didn't have an exact moment when i started to love Jesus. But now that i have finished i think i am starting to understand why i dont have an exact date.

i think its like when i like someone. i dont think i ever have an initial attraction to someone but it would build over time...a very long time. its the same with my love for Christ. i don't know why i am like this but i guess it doesnt matter now because i know i love Him.

Luke 14:33

i don't know how to do this.
God please show me.
God please take away when i can't give it up.
God i am yours no matter what i say or feel. God use me.
i will trust you

"So then, none of you can be My disciple who does not give up all his own possessions."